Glass Castle post 6

Last post in life. I wish.

So far, I think Jeannette's father has a lot of problems, for instance, bullying.
"Dad stopped the car, then jammed down the accelerator and popped the clutch. We shot forward toward Mom, who screamed and jumped out of the way. Dad turned around and went for her again."(43)
That is, quite an abnormal thing for any normal person to do. Thus, as I concluded earlier, Jeannette's father is absolutely insane, to a certain extent. The following passage from the book described his uncontrolled act in a much more descriptive way.
"It was a moonless night, so we couldn't see Mom except when she ran into the beam of the headlights. She kept looking over her shoulder, her eyes wide like a hunted animal. We kids cried and begged Dad to stop, but he ignored us...The car bounced on holes and rocks, brush scratching against its side and dust coming through the open windows. Finally, Dad cornered Mom against some rocks. I was afraid he might smush her with the car, but instead he got out and dragged her back, legs flailing, and threw her into the car."(43)
What can drive people into a state where they cannot even think anymore? What kind of emotion can let people lost all of their calmness, become savage that only reacts on their instinct? Perhaps love, and its very opposite, yet always comes together, hate. It's because you love it so much, you cannot bear anything painful from it. Because you had to take something you cannot bear, you hate it. You feel pain, the type of pain you just simply can't find anyway to ease, you lost control, you cry, you scream, you let word run out of your mouth without thinking, you become violent, you need some way to express your sorrow and anger, you can't bear it anymore, and a sudden darkness seized your civilized side, you've lost it, and...you did something that you will regret everyday in your life, something unforgivable and unforgettable. Boom, it hit you, it woke you up completely. Like waking up from a dream, you look around and wonder what has happened to this place. And a much deeper, painful realization seizes you. You've done it, nothing can be taken back. You struggle with yourself, don't want to believe the truth.
Yeah, it's struggle and it will reshape you.
And, everyday is a new start, eh?